Live Support

Safe, effective drug/alcohol treatment

All across this country in small towns, rural areas and cities, alcoholism and drug abuse are destroying the lives of men, women and their families. Where to turn for help? What to do when friends, dignity and perhaps employment are lost?

The answer is Palm Partners Recovery Center. It’s a proven path to getting sober and staying sober.

Palm Partners’ innovative and consistently successful treatment includes: a focus on holistic health, a multi-disciplinary approach, a 12-step recovery program and customized aftercare. Depend on us for help with:

I Think About Suicide (Almost) Every Single Day of My Life

I Think About Suicide (Almost) Every Single Day of My Life

(This content is being used for illustrative purposes only; any person depicted in the content is a model)

 

By Cheryl Steinberg

Honestly, this one’s gonna be a hard one to write. Already, my pulse is racing and my hands are getting sweaty.

Breathe.

I’ve spoken out and/or written about my drug addiction, my depression, my food obsession, and even about being a survivor of sexual assault. But this is the first I’ve written about this sort of thing. Suicide is still an extremely taboo topic.

I have what’s called dysthymia, which is the fancy medical term for long-term, chronic depression. And my depression happens to come along with a pleasant little feature (*sarcasm*) known as suicidal ideation.

What is Suicidal Ideation?

Suicidal ideation is the technical term that describes having thoughts about, or an unusual preoccupation with, suicide. The range of suicidal ideation varies greatly from fleeting thoughts, to extensive thoughts, to detailed planning, and unsuccessful suicide attempts. The attempts can be serious in nature, meaning the person fully wanted to succeed in taking their life. In other cases, the attempts may be deliberately intended to fail or to be discovered ‘in time.’

Most people who experience suicidal ideation do not go on to attempt suicide but, it is a risk factor. Suicidal ideation is generally associated with depression, like in my case; however, it has also been associated with several other psychiatric disorders – as well as life and family events – all of which may increase the risk of suicidal ideation.

Back to my story.

I have attempted suicide, with at least one of those attempts being dead-serious (excuse the pun). There might have been a couple of other half-a$$ed attempts along the way. Did I mention that my depression – and suicidal thoughts – kicked in around the tender age of 12? So yeah, I’ve been fighting off these dark thoughts for most of my life now (I’m in my mid-thirties).

This isn’t a boo-hoo, woe-is-me post. This is to help both me and the reader out there who can identify with my story. Writing is cathartic, therapeutic.

I take an anti-depressant and a mood stabilizer. Have done so for years. I see a therapist. I exercise, do yoga, and (try) to meditate. All of these things combined can help but, the thoughts always return. On a particularly dark day – that also happened to be a day that I saw my therapist – we of course addressed my thoughts and feelings. At one point, my therapist said – and I’m paraphrasing – that, basically, this might be as good as it gets for me. Pardon? Come again? Just what the f*ck is that supposed to mean?! Is that supposed to somehow make me feel better?!

I’m also a person in recovery from drug addiction. I’m clear that my drug use was an attempt to self-medicate; to forget the thoughts, the pain, the obsession about death and dying. Now that I don’t have that outlet, I’m left coping as best as I can. I won’t say that drugs were the best solution but, they kept the thoughts away – at first.

And then somebody up and kills themself.

It was a friend of a friend and someone whom I had never even met before. But that didn’t matter. What mattered was that someone successfully did what I’ve pretty much always wanted to do. I have a morbid fascination with others’ suicides. This recent suicide victim blew her f*cking brains out. Forgive me if I seem callous or insensitive. To me, it’s still a tragedy; but at the same time, I can’t help feeling envious. I seriously tried once and, when I woke up in the ICU, my first thought – no lie – was, “Goddammit! I’m still here.” FML.

“Suicide is Selfish”

I also want to address the oh-so-popular sentiment that gets circulated when someone commits suicide. You know the one; you may have even said it yourself: “Suicide is a selfish act.” Well, I beg to differ. And, I’d bet ONE MILLION DOLLARS (if I had it) that, if you knew what it was like to feel the way that person did when they took their life – or how I do on a daily basis – you’d ‘get it.’

The truly selfish ones, in my opinion, are the ones who condemn people who commit suicide. I shall explain and I’ll speak from my own experience. To me, living is painful. Too painful to go on, sometimes. Sometimes, the most comforting thought is the one where I’ve left this Earth and I am finally at blissful peace. Those who say that people who kill themselves are selfish are actually the ones being selfish, and understandably so; they are hurt and probably can’t bear the thought of never seeing that friend, family member, lover ever again (at least in this life).

I think suicide is a personal choice. We all – for the most part – get to make our own decisions about our bodies: what we eat, where we live/work, who we sleep with, what we’re doing Friday night. I know none of these is as permanent as suicide but, to someone like me, with the thoughts that I have to bear, it’s just another personal choice and one that can be so tempting at times.

If you or a loved one is struggling with substance use disorder, such as drug addiction, and/or depression or another psychiatric disorder, please call us toll-free at 1-800-951-6135 to speak with an Addiction Specialist, day or night. We are here to answer your call and to talk about what’s going on and how we can help.

Recovery Question: How can I get a job in the treatment industry?

Recovery Question: How can I get a job in the treatment industry?

Author: Justin Mckibben

One of the most incredible experiences I have been blessed to have in recovery is to work in the treatment industry. Working in the field of addiction treatment offers so many different variations of opportunity for all types of talents, from work with admission of new clients, to behavioral health professionals, and even the most effective therapists are often in recovery. Even a humble journalist who writes amazing and inspirational blogs while helping to spread the word of recovery and treatment can be someone who maintains sobriety. So many people want to know, how can I get a job in the treatment industry?

Identify the Position

One thing that is important to get started is to figure out which type of work you would like to do in the field of drug and alcohol treatment. Some people are more suited and more interested in positions that don’t deal too intimately with clients, and are more focused on the development of treatment and the technical side of helping develop and refine treatment strategies or administrative methods.

Other people want to work a little more hands on with individuals. I know initially I wanted to work directly with clients as a behavioral health technician in order to make more frequent personal communication with clients and try and be of service to people who have not yet been given a chance to see what recovery is like, because people did it for me and it inspired me to stay sober.

Whatever it is you want to do, make sure to identify your goal in a position and make sure that it is what you want before pursuing it.

Cultivate Your Contribution

In recovery we are taught that our new purpose is to be of maximum use to others. So to better be of service someone looking for a job in addiction treatment should be sure to cultivate their contribution by learning as much as possible about what they can bring to the table for the position they are looking for.

Speaking with professionals and trying to learn more about the position and the training is a great way to get ahead of the game. Once you are aware of the type of contribution you’re expected to make in the job you are looking for, be sure to do your homework. If it is a position that requires schooling, see if there are entry level positions available while you take the necessary classes.

Staying clean and sober is a requirement for people in recovery to get work in the field, because you have to have some time to develop your own program before you can have any productive input on someone else’s who has just arrived to recovery.

Stay Accountable

Accountability is so important in recovery, and you absolutely have to be an accountable individual in order to work in the drug and alcohol addiction treatment industry, because continued sobriety must be nurtured and promoted, because the best way to work with other addicts or alcoholics is to lead by example and empower them with successes and being dependable.

Also showing your ability to stay active and in touch with the right group of sober and positive people will help you out a lot when looking for work in treatment. When you are active in the recovery community and stay in contact with therapists or administrators you can consistently show you are reliable and ambitious about becoming part of the recovery work-force.

Also being active and accountable in whatever positions you hold while working towards this goal is very important. Any respectable job will want to see that you are able to stay on task, put forth a solid effort and be passionate about what you do. Also, seeking a position at the treatment center you attended may put you at an advantage depending on the company because you are familiar with the philosophy of that entity enough to understand and uphold their system.

Practice Your Principles

Make sure to keep growing and striving for the goal, and to practice your principles of sobriety openly and honestly. If you want to get work in the treatment industry and you’re in recovery it is vital that you stay on top of your own recovery, and again lead by example.

When practicing your principles whether you are training, interviewing or applying for work in treatment is important in order to communicate and express your talents and abilities in the position you’re seeking out. In recovery it is important not to set expectations, but be prepared to set the bar for yourself high so that you can provide a quality version of yourself to apply toward whatever you would do for a treatment facility.

While staying in contact and staying accountable to those who work at the treatment facility, let them see how you carry yourself as a sober individual, and emphasize your passion for these principles that have given you this new life of sobriety. One way or the other your actions will always speak volumes, so do not hesitate to volunteer your time to the treatment program, and apply yourself to every opportunity to show you have and learn and will teach from a personal experience.

Working in drug and alcohol addiction treatment is an amazing experience, and I was blessed enough to get a job doing what I love at a treatment center that had a huge part of saving my life. None of that would have been possible without other people in recovery who were working at Palm Partners when I was a client, and what they did to change my recovery is something I could only hope to contribute to someone else, because the disease of addiction is powerful and fatal, but thankfully we are all in this together. If you or someone you love is struggling with substance abuse or addiction, please call toll-free 1-800-951-6135 

Can You Really Be Addicted to The Needle?

Can You Really Be Addicted to The Needle?

By Cheryl Steinberg

As a recovering IV drug user, I can say absolutely, without a doubt that yes, you can be addicted to the needle and to that ‘needle high.’

For many, if not all drug addicts, the ritual of using – preparing the drug in whatever form they prefer to use, whether it’s crushing and snorting pills or cooking dope and shooting it up – is just as ‘exciting,’ if you will, as the actual high from the drug.

When I was out there using, I would feel a level of excitement and anticipation, especially after I finally had my DOC in my possession. Then it was all about setting the scene. Whether it was a public bathroom or my bedroom, there was a specific ritual that went into the preparation of the drug and the needle. I’d start sweating and feel the strong urge to pee. I would get so shaky that, many times, I’d actually spill the dope before I could actually draw it up into the needle. Which sucked so bad.

So, Can You Really Be Addicted to The Needle?

To sort of prove my point that you can be addicted to the needle, I can tell you that I’ve heard other IV users say that there were times where, even if they ran out of drugs, they’d ‘push’ water or shoot alcohol just to get that needle high. And I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t do that a couple times, myself, when I was in my active addiction and desperate for a high.

I knew I was making progress, though, when I was still at the IOP (intensive outpatient program) level of treatment and went over to my sponsor’s house to do some step work. She had some friends over and forgot to mention to me that one of them is an insulin-dependent diabetic, which means that he has to inject insulin periodically. Now, this is all important to my little story because, at one point, I walked into the kitchen to get a glass of water and there he stood, at the peninsula counter facing me, with his “works” all laid out right in my line of vision. The needle was even the same exact kind I had used in my active addiction; the skinny ones with the orange caps. And, honestly, I didn’t even flinch.

I shared about my little experience in group the next day, not really realizing just how meaningful it was to my progress in my recovery. As the therapist facilitating the group pointed out, the fact that my first thought upon seeing the syringe was about diabetes and medical use meant that I had broken the association with that needle high and being addicted to the needle, and using drugs, in general. Overall, it was an optimistic sign of growth and healing.

And today, with nearly 2 years clean and sober, I can tell you that things definitely get better and that craving for that needle high goes away. In fact, not only do I not associate syringes with illicit drug use anymore, the sight of them and thought of people injecting actually grosses me out.

Recovery is possible and help is available. If you are struggling with IV drug use or any other substance abuse or addiction issues, call us toll-free at 1-800-951-6135 to speak directly with an Addiction Specialist. We are available around the clock to answer your questions and share with you our resources. You are not alone.

How to Deal When Your Loved One Wants to Leave Treatment Early

How to Deal When Your Loved One Wants to Leave Treatment Early

When it comes to substance abuse and addiction, the longer and more intensive the treatment program, the better. Addiction is a life-long disease for which there is no cure however, there is specialized treatment that can help those who struggle with the disease to learn coping methods and tools in order to arrest their disease, stopping it in its tracks.

But treatment can be daunting. At times, it’s uncomfortable – physically, due to withdrawal syndrome, and emotionally. Sooner or later, every addict in treatment wants to leave. The issue, for those who care for the addict, becomes: how to deal when your loved one wants to leave treatment early?

Talk to your loved one about it

If your loved one says they want to leave treatment early, the best way to respond is with care and concern. Ask them to give it a try. Empathize with them by letting them know you understand that it is difficult and unpleasant but, emphasize that it is critical for them to complete the whole program in order to give themselves the best chance at success. You can get input from the staff and other medical professionals regarding statistics and then use this as ammunition to back up your request.

Be prepared for arguments

Which can be pretty compelling at times. Remember that someone who is experiencing substance abuse and addiction issues is pretty good at manipulating others and, because they are your loved one, they’ll know what buttons to push and what things to say in order to persuade you to see things their way. Again, do your homework and have your responses in order. You never want to be caught without an appropriate comment. That will just give the addict an edge to chip away at your resolve.

Here are some common complaints and excuses that your loved one might use in order to get you to agree to them leaving treatment early.

  • I’m too lonely. I miss you, my family and my friends.
  • The food here is gross.
  • I really don’t belong here. Everyone here is way worse than I am.
  • How could you stick me in a place like this?
  • I can’t sleep. The other clients keep me up at night. The bed’s uncomfortable.
  • They won’t let me watch my favorite TV shows.
  • They won’t let me stay up as late as I like. And I have to get up too early.
  • The work is too hard.
  • I don’t like telling my private thoughts to a group of strangers.
  • I don’t like my therapist.
  • I feel like a prisoner.
  • I promise I won’t touch alcohol (or drugs, gambling, or other addictive behavior) any more. Please just let me come home.
  • If you love me, you’ll let me come home.
  • I hate you for what you’ve done to me, telling me I have to stay here.
  • When I get out of here, I’m never coming back home. Then you’ll see what you’ve done.
  • Was it really so bad when I was home? I’ll try to do better. Just give me a chance. I don’t need to stay here any longer. I’ve really learned my lesson.
  • I’m afraid to stay here. The other patients are scary, even crazy and dangerous.

They can go on and on with complaints and excuses such as these. Most likely, they will start with whatever they think will work with you and gradually move on to more elaborate and specific reasons as to why they need to leave treatment.

Talk with their therapist

Of course this is only an option if your loved one has signed a release of information making it legal for their therapist to discuss their case with you. If it is an option, get the therapist’s input on how you can support your loved one is treatment and how to deal when your loved one wants to leave treatment early. After all, their therapist has been the ones involved in your loved one’s care and therefore have some insight as to what will be supportive in this situation.

Support groups

There are support groups, free to join, for people in your situation: loved ones of an alcoholic/addict. You can go online to find when and where these meetings take place. Search for Family Anonymous, Al-Anon, and Nar-Anon.

Stay involved in their treatment

Often times, treatment programs offer some kind of family program that allows you, the loved one of someone in treatment, to get involved in the treatment process and learn all about it. These kinds of programs are essential to a successful treatment plan because they educate and empower the loved ones of those who are in treatment for addiction and substance abuse disorders. Family programs usually involve meetings and activities that take place over the course of a weekend and, for those who live too far to attend, offer other kinds of support and ways to participate, even without being there in person.

Having a loved one who is affected by a substance abuse disorder or addiction can be really tough. Many people in this situation feel at a loss of what to do and where to start when it comes to getting help for their loved one who struggles. If you or a loved one is struggling with substance abuse or addiction, please call us here at Palm Partners where we offer a top-notch family program. Our number is toll-free 1-800-951-6135 and we have addiction specialists available 24/7 whom you can talk to about the treatment process as well as how to deal when your loved one wants to leave treatment early.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

 

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

Whether you’ve been to treatment once or 20 times, we all know the typical people who are in a treatment center. I’ve thought of the 11 types of people in every treatment center.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center…

1. The know-it-all (the person you can’t tell anything to, they know everything)

This is the person who thinks they know everything there is to know about recovery and how to stay sober. If you give them your input, they most likely are just going to turn it down – because they know much more than you do.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

2. The season veteran (the person who has been through treatment many times)

They regularly go treatment, maybe once or twice a year. The people in the treatment center probably know them or know people who know them. They go in and out of rehab like it’s no big deal. They are usually referred to as chronic relapsers.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

3. The escape artist (constantly plotting ways to escape from treatment)

You know that one who is always planning a way to escape and run away from treatment? Someone should let this person know that they can just walk out if they want to leave. Nonetheless, they still escape and come back again.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

4. The person who hogs the pain box (aka phone)

In treatment, we refer to the phone as the pain box. It’s called that because we always end up calling our loved ones and pouring tons of tears and emotion into the phone; sometimes even trying to start making amends. This person is very selfish with the phone privileges and never gives anyone a turn on the phone.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

5. The doc/shrink (the person who thinks they’re a therapist)

The person who has done their research and is convinced that they know all about the disease of addiction. They try to act like a doctor or therapist and even correct the therapists during group therapy sessions. Eventually we all learn that knowledge means nothing in recovery.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

6. The emotional junkie (crying and wanting to talk about emotions, ALL. THE. TIME.)

The guy or girl who is always crying or wanting to be the one who shares their feelings and emotions during every group or even just while hanging out around the clients. Some of us can’t stop crying when we get sober, for others it might take a while before we can feel and cry again.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

7. The recluse (the person who doesn’t want to talk to anyone, keeps to themselves)

This is the one who never wants to share during any groups and doesn’t really want to be involved at all. They may be shy or uncomfortable, or just unwilling to let people get to know them and actually give this recovery thing a shot – only time will tell.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

8. The biggest turn-around (this is the one everyone thinks is going to relapse instantly, and does a complete 180)

We all know the person who comes in and everyone is sure they’re going to relapse and not stay sober. But then, they prove us all wrong and end up being the biggest turn-around and success out of everyone in the treatment center.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

9. The person who is only there to dry out (just trying to get their family off of their back)

A lot of us have been this person before; the one who is really only there to get their family off their back and clean up house. They’re merely in treatment to dry out and get a little clean time so they can go back to their everyday life and possibly using drugs and alcohol again.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

10. The princess/prince who isn’t impressed (thinks the accommodations could be better, was expecting to be treated like royalty)

The princess/prince is the person who comes into treatment fully expecting it to be like a vacation/spa. They’re extremely disappointed with any responsibility they have to take on and were under the impression that this was going to be all about going to the beach and getting tan; poor knave.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

11. The virgin (first-time rehab goers)

Anyone who has been to treatment has been this person. It’s their first time in rehab and they have no idea what’s going on or what to expect. They may not have ever even heard of treatment and meetings and recovery before. Remember, just because you are a virgin to treatment and this is your first time, doesn’t mean it can’t be your last.

The 11 Types of People in Every Treatment Center

Photo Credit: www.wifflegif.com

If you or a loved one are struggling with substance abuse or addiction, please call toll free 1-800-951-6135.

free treatment ebook

Categories

Accepted Insurance Types Please call to inquire
Call Now